Would I call it a ‘Come Back?”

Right when I started going through some life changes, I abandoned many of my hobbies and interests. I picked up new ones, but I knew the things I used to do were still holding a special place in my heart. For me that was mountain biking and writing. I used to manage two sites, BikeCommuters.com and MtnBikeRiders.com. But while I was dealing with all the drama in my life, I decided to step down and relinquish my responsibilities to some dear friends. Now that I’m going into my 3rd year of my new life, I started showing more interest in these hobbies. In fact, I even bought a new mountain bike and I’ve started blogging again.
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This bike isn’t anything fancy, it’s a basic single speed fat tire mountain bike. I got a crazy deal on it through eBay. I’m actually looking forward to riding again, it should be fun. This fat bike would make things more interesting on the trail once I start riding again.

The blogging thing was actually huge. I used to pride myself on my ability to write about anything. But I stopped for quite some time just to deal with things. As of late, I’ve been publishing more and more work. One of my other blogs I run just got a new article posted and it’s about Chinese Scooters.

I think as I work through my stuff, I’m finally starting to get a sense of where I want to go and what I want to do. Writing and riding was always a big part of my life that I found very rewarding. So it only makes sense for me to come back to it. Just recently a friend was visiting whom I haven’t seen in years asked me how I’m doing and what I’m up to now. I told him that for the most part I’m doing well. He asked me about my hobbies, I told him I’ve been fishing more than I ever have but mentioned my new bike. I guess it was at that point where I started seeing that I’m on my way out of the muck and mire I’ve had to deal with in the past few years. Now that things are starting to settle down, I’m picking up where I left off. I’m hoping that the next thing I start focusing on would be my health. I do miss racing…but that’s for another day to talk about.

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So how are things?

Thanks for asking. I’d say they’re getting better. Divorce sucks and I’m still dealing with some of the emotional trauma from it. But I have to say I’m doing better today than I was when it first hit the fan. My girls continue to do well. They still live with me.

A lot has happened over the past several months. So for starters I left a job in May to go work somewhere else. That new gig didn’t mesh well with my life and priorities, so I left. I landed with a Marketing Agency in South Orange County. I’m pretty happy here.

We lost Cowboy over the summer. He had some heart problems and was deteriorating so we had to put him down. It really broke all of our hearts. I still miss that guy. He was such a great dog.

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In his absense the girls really missed having another dog in the house. Sadie, our other doggo felt it too. So the girls went to the shelter and adopted a little girl named Maggie. She’s a cute and funny looking dog. Her personality totally reminds me of Alyssa when she was little. She’s basically Alyssa’s kid. Maggie is such a trouble maker…just like how her mom (Alyssa) used to be. Sadie tolerates her, it’s been a rough go around with those two, they fight on occassion.

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Anyhow, this month I turn 42…dang I feel old! I’ve got more grey hairs on my head. Luckily I’m not going bald…thank goodness for good genes! Rather than having another party, I told the girls I just want something low-key at the house. I requested Costco Pizza, some beer and a few cigars to enjoy afterwards. I’m not sure why I’m not much in a partying mood.

Perhaps its just me getting older and not needing people to validate me. Parties are great for that, you invite your closest friends and family and they give you presents, hang out, joke with you about how old you’re getting and etc. It’s fun, but it also costs money. This year I know who I am, I’m loved, confident and I’m talented; which means I don’t need other people to remind me that. Don’t get me wrong, a happy birthday wish would be nice and would go a long way with me.

One of the things I told myself I wanted to pursue was to live a simple life. My previous life was very much about what someone else wanted. I’m not much into travel, I like good food, sometimes crappy Chinese food is the best. I also like just sitting around and just hanging out.

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With that in mind, I find myself going fishing quite often. I dont’ have to catch anything, if I do, then it’s a bonus. I go to the lake to decompress, relax, pray and journal. I love smoking cigars and riding my motorcycles. Ya that’s really about it. Those are the things I enjoy. I feel that I’m doing a great job in keeping up with it, lol.

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In the last-almost-3years, I’ve gotten more into working with my hands. I find it very theraputic. Working on my cars, motorcycles and just plain tinkering gets my mind to focus and remind me that I’m good at many of these things I get involved with. It’s funny, when I haven’t worked on stuff, I find myself wanting to hold tools in my hands just to get some sort of fix…no pun intended.

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Anyway, that’s it for now. There’s been quite a few things that has happened and currently going on now in my life. I’m on Instagram so if you feel inclined to, follow me @rlpolicar

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